I don't know what it is lately, but I can't seem to concentrate on anything for longer than 2 minutes. I stare at my professors, and I see their mouths moving, but I rarely hear what they're saying. Every now and then I'll tune back in and catch a snatch of something, just enough to confuse me even further. What's wrong with me? I think I may be on the verge of burning out.
I can't wait for Christmas to get here, so I can sleep in as much as I like. Of course, that would require getting through finals, which is most definitely not cool. I'm running scared just like everyone else, and it gets worse when I remember that our classes are curved. In essence, it's not enough to do well, we have to do well relative to each other. I don't really think it's fair that our classes are curved the first semester when we're still getting used to things and trying to figure out how to take exams. It's especially not cool when we receive no feedback on how we're doing and our exams end up being 100% of our grade. Too bad this law school isn't like those few top schools that don't even give grades. They just give P = pass or HP = high pass. Wouldn't that be great?? Then I wouldn't be losing any sleep over first semester grades.
I know that as long as you work hard to get to where you want to go, your grades won't stop you as long as you have the drive. But it's still stressful for me knowing that when the time comes my abilities will be pitted against the 220 other 1Ls.